He could see the struggle in her eyes. She knew him so well, even after all these years---after all this time away from each other. She could still tell what was going on inside his head with just one look. He loved that about her. He loved the connection that they had always had with each other. The thought of losing her again caused his heart to squeeze. With a sigh, he slowly took a deep breath to calm his emotions inside. He was alpha, the last thing he needed was for his stupid best friend to piss him off so badly that he lost his cool in front of Payton when she was finally here to see him. Besides it was about to rain, though it wouldn't slow him down when he broke AJ's legs, he'd feel bad making her wait for him. And even though he knew AJ would heal within a few hours, the satisfaction of causing him some pain was up there with the feeling of not wanting to cause Payton any discomfort.
He weighed the options and took a hard look at Payton's face. How long would it be before she spoke to him again if he actually broke AJ's legs. Well, the better question would be how long could he last with knowing that she was in town and then also knowing that she wasn't speaking to him. Not long if he was really truly honest with himself. Swallowing he took a step towards her, clearly making the choice to stay with her and spend the night with her. He did need to make a few calls though before he got too comfortable. He wouldn't call AJ though, he still wanted his attack to be a surprise. He looked up at Payton, the look she gave him confused him, but it also sent his blood boiling with excitement. All of the emotions he was now feeling, if he had been a new or young wolf without practice, he'd have changed on the spot. Thank god he was practiced.
Shrugging he looked down at her feet and rubbed the back of his neck. "No idea what you're talking about. I'd never do anything to hurt our precious AJ!"
He said as he sent her a smirking smile. He wasn't exactly being honest, but the two had scuffles all the time. Nothing serious. "Don't blame yourself Payday. I get it that you didn't come see me. LIfe can be a bitch sometimes."
As much as he did feel hurt that she didn't come see him, he didn't want her to feel bad for living her life. He wouldn't have known what to say to him either if he were in her shoes. It was bad enough on the other end. He himself had no idea what to say to her, and he's not the one that left. Just then he noticed her scar. It was in the same place that the blood had poured from her head that night. He felt himself automatically reaching out for her. He knew better, it wasn't like he didn't have manners and it was clear that she was somewhat self conscious of it. Taking a few steps forward to reach her on the porch. He reached out to her and ran his thumb over the much cooler moon shaped scar that nearly circled her eye.
"Payton I'm so sorry.."
He said in a soft voice. Leaning forward he kissed the scar lightly. He felt solely responsible for the scar and her entire miserable childhood. He could have stopped it, but he didn't. In his defense he was just a child, but he knew better. He should have protected her better.
When she began to apologize for things that were beyond her control, for her past choices that he shouldn't be mad at anyway, he leaned back slightly and looked at her.
"Payton! Stop. What are you talking about? You shouldn't be sorry for anything. You had no control over anything that's happened. Don't be sorry."
He took her hand and pulled her into the house.
"There has to be something to eat in here. Come in out of the cold."
Just in time, he smiled to himself. He knew it was just about to rain. The rain began to fall as soon as the door clicked shut behind them. Falling in sheets over everything. Icy sheets of rain bouncing off of the exact spot that they had just been standing on.